Read It And Weap

I've got to spill my fucking guts somewhere,
it might as well be here.

If I Die Young

If I die young, bury me in satin, lay me down on a bed of roses, sink me in the river at dawn, send me away with the words of a love song. ♥

Thursday, October 14, 2010

Because of You.

My night has become a sunny dawn because of you. <3

Day 1 -

Jacob Ryan Emerick
I don't just like this boy; I am completely in love with him. However, I cannot explain as to why in just a mere paragraph, that would never even be close to enough. I'm going to do the best I can though, so here goes. Every aspect of his being leaves me astonished. There isn’t a single thing I dislike about this child.  I love his weirdness, and the creeper type thing he’s got goin’ on. I love how his laugh is contagious, like a fatal disease and causes me to laugh too. I love his big, beautiful eyes, which always hold laughter and the promise that things will be okay. I love his long dark eyelashes, which are the prettiest ones I’ve ever seen on a boy. I love the way he talks, it puts me at ease. I love the way he snores, loud enough to wake me up. I know it’s cliché, but he is my everything. He’s there when no one else is. He makes me smile when no one else can. He picks me up before I even fall. I know I can count on him with anything and everything. He’s seen me at my worst, and he’s the reason I’m at my best. If it weren’t for him, I wouldn’t be anywhere near this happy. He gives me something to believe in and something to look forward to. Being in his arms, it makes me feel invincible. I swear, that’s the place I feel safest. I love how we talk about the most ridiculous things and I never get bored with him. I love how I think I know everything about him, yet each new day I discover more and more reasons to love him. This boy, he knows me better than I know myself sometimes. I love the way he smiles. I love how he plays with my feet and makes fart noises on my tummy. I love how he goes out of his way just to make sure I have a good day. I love how he always seems eager to talk to me. I love how he licks my feet and picks me up. His kisses take my breath away, and when he hugs me, I never want him to let go. I love how he makes me feel indescribable. I love the butterflies that flutter around in my tummy, just by being in the same room as him. I love how my heart starts to race the moment I realize he’s calling me. Most of all, I love the way he loves me. <3

Monday, October 11, 2010

It's Like This

You have to have the nicest clothes and the cutest purse, or say the newest thing, so it catches on. You have to be athletic and have parents who know someone who knows someone. You have to be skinny and have perfect skin. You have to buy this, wear this, say that, be on his side, be on her side, be neautral, your hair can't be frizzy, and you can't wear that because it just doesn't "work" anymore, that outfit was so "last year." You have to go to parties, be friends with everyone, trust no one, pose like this, smile like that, tilt your head this way, put your hand on your hip, because that's just how it is.
Well, let me just say, fuck all of that.

Friday, October 8, 2010

30 Day Challenge.

I've Learned


That you can't help who you fall for, it isn't a choice, it's something much stronger than that. And no matter how hard you try and how much it hurts you, everyday you just want to be with them or just to talk to them and you can never stop trying to make them happy, because that's what keeps you going.